Nothing

Here I am two weeks later and absolutely no progress. I work out when I can and I try to diet and I have not lost a pound. No, thats a lie I have lost a pound, one single pound. With the realization that Heath will be home soon and I have to cook again eventually I am trying to add real meals to my diet instead of all frozen foods but its hard to cook vegan food and keep it light. And with 2 dogs in kennels I don't want to drive all the way home and back to SLC to work out everyday, not that I could like I used to. I feel like I am making excuses for everything and I need to change but I don't remember how. But I will keep trying to do better, I can't continue to look myself in the mirror and not hate what I see. I can't keep shopping in the "curvy girl" sections and telling myself its cute.

Tipping the Scale

At 29 yrs old I have just weighed in at 196 and change. I have been struggling with my weight my entire life and I am sick of it. I was doing so well when I was unemployed (and could literally work out ALL day) but now I am back to work, I don't take the time for it. I had a goal while my boyfriend was gone to lose at least 20 lbs and up until this last week I was doing it, time to start over from scratch. I need to lose 46 lbs by his birthday this September for an awesome present and starting today I am going to chronicle my weight struggles & issues that I feel prevent me from losing. I am going to weigh in twice a week and set a weekly goal to lose 2-3 lbs one Saturday to the next.

My current struggle is my food choices. I Mexican food, LOVE IT. But I can't seem to eat 1/2 a dinner and take the rest to go. I pick at food and eventually eat it all. I also have a problem with candy bars; I love Hershey's with Almonds and Whatchamacallit bars. I thought I could fit one in my daily intake if I was watching my calories but it seems that will change now too.

My boyfriend comes home in less than a month and if I can just break 190 I will be thrilled. I am happy to know he loves me for me but I just can't huff & puff after climbing 5 stairs anymore. I don't want to shop at the "curvy" stores or breath heavily just from walking. I have lost the weight twice before & I can do it again.

A year in the making & I am finally adding a blog...Unfortunately there is not alot to write about. I got laid off (2 weeks ago tomorrow). I work part time at the hotel but I can't do it more than the 1 day a week. I start a new job next week at AT & T in Ogden but not really looking forward to it. Its temp job & it pays really well so I can it suck it up for a car payment but I am still searching. Keep your fingers crossed!